Gravity

I have only recently started speaking out about my abuse. I knew it would be difficult but it is only recently I have realized how difficult. What we have and are going through is not something that is understood by many. All forms of abuse are complicated. We look at women who are being abused by their spouses and ask why they don’t leave. I too have been guilty of asking why they stay. The answers they give all vary but it is never one simple answer because the question in its self is not simple. By asking you to speak out about something you’ve never told anyone before or told very few I am asking you to open yourself up to being questioned on something you would rather not think about. But those of us who have been abused know all too well that those thoughts are never to far from our minds. I know it’s difficult to address this aspect of our lives; for many of us it has been easier to bury it and keep it to ourselves. I know that by speaking out about it I’m asking you to place yourself in the line of fire, asking you to open yourself up for being blamed, for being accused, for being interrogated and maybe made to feel shameful, that you are a liar, that maybe you enjoyed it or in some twisted way wanted this or that this is your fault. But by speaking out I am really asking you to take a stand and let your abuser know that you are no longer afraid of him, that are moving forward with your life by dealing with what has happened to you. What we have been through is scary and difficult to face, we’ve all dealt with it in various ways and maybe one of the ways to move forward is by speaking about it. You don’t have to make your story public, you can use the forum as a way of speaking about it and protecting your identity. Always remember that you are not alone in this.